It's one thing to hear that God is a healer, but it's a whole different experience to witness it firsthand. I've come across inspiring testimonies of cancer being miraculously cured, fibroids transforming into pregnancies, and even women conceiving in their 40s despite being barren for years. Before this, my personal encounters with healing were limited to dealing with common illnesses like colds, migraines, or a concussion, which seemed small and required little faith. On my journey with Christ to my surprise, I had to face a life-altering diagnosis that required my faith to be stretched like never before.
Let me start from the beginning. So I had never experienced a regular menstrual cycle throughout my life. It was sporadic, I couldn't predict when it would come, or it would just not come for months at a time. Honestly, I didn't pay much attention to it and just kept on living my life, assuming it was nothing serious. However, as the years passed, I finally decided to seek answers from a doctor.
After doing some blood work and imaging tests, the doctor came to the conclusion that I had polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). She explained to me that PCOS was a complex hormonal disorder that could lead to a range of health challenges, including fertility issues, weight gain, and an increased risk of developing other medical conditions. I won’t lie, initially, my heart sank at the thought that this would threaten my normal way of living. In that moment the real test of the depths of my faith started. Until then, I had considered myself strong in my beliefs, but truthfully it had always been kind of easy to trust God when the challenges were minor. Now, with a bigger mountain in front of me, I had to dig deeper to find the strength to face this new reality and put my faith into action.
I had heard of this PCOS before but didn’t know much about it, so I did what anyone would do, went to a doctor Google. The biggest thing that shook me was that women with PCOS struggle with infertility. If you know me, you know that having children has been a lifelong dream of mine. I dream of a tribe of minis running around. PCOS was a threat to that. I started reading up on natural ways to cure myself. The first thing I thought I could change was my diet. I tried shopping differently for groceries, looking for new recipes for meal prepping, and even searching for supplements to regulate my hormones. This caused me so much anxiety! I can remember calling my mom crying, "I can’t eat anything." The stress of trying to lean on my understanding and heal myself was really getting to me.
In retrospect, I realized that when the doctor tried to diagnose me, I partnered too closely with that word, and it almost consumed me. But the thing about journeying with Jesus is that even in our doubt, fear, and faithlessness He is there to gently reorient us back to His truth. God did that for me when He gently corrected my posture. He helped me understand that I couldn't fully embrace healing if I chose to accept sickness. My language became more intentional, especially in conversations. I changed from saying “my doctor said I have” to “ my doctor tried to diagnose" me. It might seem like a subtle difference in language, but there is immense power in our words, as the scripture reminds us, death and life are in the power of the tongue (scripture). By affirming that she tried to diagnose me, I was implying that she did not succeed, and that diagnosis was not mine. PCOS was not my sickness; it was an attack of the enemy on my faith, a distraction from the truth of the God I serve. I must admit, it nearly worked, but God!
I honestly don't even know when my mindset shifted, but it did. I started to remember who I am and, more importantly, who my Father is. I made a conscious decision to truly believe in God and His healing power. I constantly reminded myself that there's no diagnosis too big or too small for Him to handle. It took releasing control and letting go of my attempts to heal myself through science or natural remedies. Instead, I leaned into the truth of the finished work of Jesus on the cross. By His stripes we were healed (scripture), so the healing was already done through Christ’s torturous death and miraculous resurrection. I just had to take what Jesus had already made available to me.
Then Jesus gave me this phrase, “My body houses the holy spirit, I am made well from the inside out”. This profound phrase, gifted to me by God, became my daily mantra. I took ownership of the body God gave me, reminded myself that the all power God lives within me, and that as a result, even my body had to come into alignment with the perfect design of God. With each repetition, my faith grew stronger. Whenever I attended church services and prayers went up for healing, I said this declaration out loud. Speaking these words not just in my head, but actually hearing myself say it out loud was crucial for me. It solidified my belief and transformative effect on my faith, reminding me that God's healing touch was available to me.
Before I started to pursue healing, I had started birth control to regulate my cycle, but it was only a temporary fix. After a few years, I decided to take myself off and see what my body was doing on its own. I went back to the doctor about 5 years after the initial diagnosis. They checked my hormone levels again and took new images of my reproductive organs. As I laid on the examination table, I recited the phrase "My body houses the holy spirit, I am made well from the inside out" over and over again until the test was over. A week later, I received the report from the doctor, and guess what! They didn't find a single cyst on my ovaries and my blood levels were exactly where they were supposed to be! God did it - He healed me from PCOS!
I'll never get tired of sharing my testimony. God healed me, even after my faith wavered. He showed Himself to be faithful. He truly is a great God.
Though I rejoice that I am healed from PCOS, I am still waiting for the full manifestation of a regular monthly cycle. My experience of God healing me has built my faith up to believe that God will complete what He started. I am healed, and I have faith to believe that I will see my body obey the design of the Lord. While I may not fully understand the timing and the process, I trust in His perfect plan for my life. I choose to hold onto the promise in Philippians 1:6, "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." God started a good work in me, and I have the confidence that He will bring it to completion, including the fulfillment of my dream to become a mother.
Looking back, I now understand why the Bible encourages us to rejoice in our sufferings, for it is through these struggles that our faith is refined and strengthened (scripture). My journey with PCOS was been challenging, but it has also been a journey of deepening faith and trust in God's sovereignty. I have learned to surrender my desires and plans to Him, knowing that His ways are higher than mine. I pray you fully embrace the same faith for yourself.
I encourage you to believe again, especially for the hard things.
Trust that God is not limited by the challenges you face or the circumstances you find yourself in. He is a God of miracles, and He desires to heal you, body, mind, and spirit.
Don't be discouraged by the trials you face; instead, let them be an opportunity for your faith to level up. Remember, healing is not just a distant memory from biblical times; it's still happening today.
Watch your words and pay attention to what you say, it will reveal what you truly believe in your heart. Speak words of faith, hope, and healing into existence.
In moments of doubt, look back on the testimonies of countless individuals, including myself, who have experienced God's healing touch. Let their stories ignite a flame of hope within you.
No matter how daunting your circumstances may seem, know that there is nothing too difficult for God to handle.
Pray with me
Heavenly Father, with hearts full of gratitude and awe, we thank you for your miraculous healing power. Though we may face health challenges that shake our faith, we remember that with you, nothing is impossible. Gently guide us back to your truth and renew our faith in you. We declare that sickness and disease do not define us, for you are our healer, and your promises are true. By the finished work of Jesus on the cross, we are made whole from the inside out. Lord, we lift up all those facing sicknesses and diseases, both physical and emotional. Strengthen their faith and ignite hope in their hearts, knowing that you are always near, ready to extend your healing touch.
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